Friday, January 17, 2014

The Waiting Is The Hardest Part

It is a very cold morning here in our little town in Florida.  It is a brisk 32 degrees which made getting out of a bed a little difficult for us this morning.  Our beds felt so warm and comfy, our flannel pajamas never felt better, and the quiet made our eyelids want to stay closed.  I remember many mornings like that when I was growing up in Pennsylvania.

What has been making these winter days seem long is the waiting.  Waiting to hear word from Yun's orphanage.  Waiting to hear wether or not we have USCIS approval, waiting for a miracle to raise the amount of money needed to send our dossier to China.  When we adopted Dima it was a fast, crazy, and emotional roller coaster.  Within seven months we were in Ukraine!  In this adoption we are now in the seventh month of the process and nowhere near traveling to China to bring our daughter-to-be home.  No.  We are still waiting on stateside approval.

While we are not legally Yun's family, she has made her way into our hearts a year ago when we were first introduced to her through Reece's Rainbow.  About a month ago I began to set the supper table for seven rather than six.  Not on purpose, mind you.  It just happened.  And when I realized what I had done tears just streamed down my face.  Another evening as we were getting ready to eat supper I had Elijah call everyone to the table.  Without thinking he called for Yun.  She has a room that is slowly transforming into her personal space.  There are dresses in her closet, a dollhouse waiting to be played with, and other items that sit idle in her dresser.  In our hearts and minds she belongs here.  Is it 100% certain at this exact moment that she will be ours?  No.  But we are continuing to walk this road of faith as a family knowing that we are doing the right thing.

It is our hope that we will have USCIS approval by the end of the month.  According to most families who are little farther along than us in the process the average wait has been about 52 days.  January 31st, Chinese New Year, will bring us to that point.  Once we have our approval our agency said that our dossier will be able to be sent off within two weeks of having our approval.  Then more waiting.  Yes, I know it is all in God's timing.  I know that waiting helps us build patience.  But I have concern for Yun and her current situation that I would rather not get into out in the open.  Please pray for safety, her health, and her spirit.  Most pictures that we have seen of her show that she has a brilliant smile that lights up her entire face and I pray that she continues to have a reason to smile.

In the meantime please consider making a purchase from my Etsy Shop.  100% of your purchase will go towards our adoption.  At this point we still need to earn/raise $3782 so we can send our dossier to China.  Any donations made to our FSP with Reece's Rainbow, while appreciated, will not be able to be applied to our upcoming fees so the best way to contribute is to make a purchase or contact me directly.  But it feels good to earn the money which is why I have an Etsy Shop.

Finally, here is a video of her from July 11, 2013.  Yun is being asked if she wants to be adopted.  She answers, "Yes".  She knows...she knows that there is a family out there who cares and loves her.  This beautiful 11-year-old girl deserves to know the love of a family...


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